I can't sleep. Sleeping has always been an issue for me... I've had terrible insomnia since I was young, and the fatigue that would follow me around the next day was generally a huge impediment on my favorite activities, like parkour, and... parkour. I mean, there has been some definite improvement over the past year (with the help of sleeping pills), but I'd still really like some kind of button or switch to shut down my brain at night.
Tonight, I can't sleep, and I'm very annoyed by this -_- (do any of you ever put smilies in your blogs, by the way? Cause now that I think of it, I'm not sure any of you do, and that seems odd to me. Are smilies just not classy? Are blogs supposed to be classy?? Gee wizzickers!) ..AHEM.. I have to be well-rested tomorrow in order to perform double front-flips off the diving board to impress Lyndsay, so this sucks.
I've even tried my favorite mind-trick already, but it failed. You see, when I can't get to sleep, I often consider texting everyone I know to wake them up out of sheer spite. (I have no sympathy for people who leave their phones on at night and then complain about getting texted. If you didn't wanna chit-chat, why have your phone on?) But that doesn't help me sleep. What USUALLY happens is I reject this desire to wake people up, and in doing so I feel so benevolent that I can sleep peacefully. Unfortunately these charitably kind thoughts of mine are not helping me sleep tonight, so I find myself at an impasse. Maybe I was just born to be nocturnal. That seems logical to me. My mom is pretty vampiric, too, but that's out of choice. She is awake right now watching TV. I found a good adjective for her a long time ago on Word-of-the-Day: Lucifugous ("avoiding light").
I think I understand the whole smiley thing now. I guess I like to use them because they're something to fall back on. It's a nice little shortcut, far more easy to use a facial expression than to explain things in more detail.
Euuuuugggggghhhh I think I've wasted enough time. I shouldn't have written a blog, it just made me divagate from my goal. I suppose I must try once more to plunge myself from that gunky restless mind-fog into a more solid sleep.
Hi-Yo, Silver! Away!
The opposite of how I feel:
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